So I was in a horrible car accident on 5 September 2011. I lost my brother and was in hospital for about 2 months followed by not being able to really move and then having to slowly relearn how to not only be able to walk again, but also how to take care of myself.
I was doing really well before my accident and was slowly reaching my goal weight and size. I lost a lot of weight in hospital and was really happy with the way my body was looking...
However I was released from hospital and sent to live with my parents for a while, who then made me start eating again. Attached with a frontal lobe brain injury...I couldn't stop eating once I started....So now I feel like I am fat again!!
Which is not doing any good for how I feel about myself. It is extremely hard to be able to not eat or eat when I want...It is even harder to be able to purge if I feel like I have way over done it. Which is almost every day now that I am living back at home.
After everything that I have been through you would think that they would just let me not eat, because I am not hungry...Nope, not in this house!!
I hate it! I was either over weight or fat, when I lived at home at its all starting to repeat itself! I feel like it is really starting to drive me insane! Slowly, but still going insane is not very fun!
I'm trying to go back home soon, so that way I can get back to where I was. I wish I would have come out of hospital and gone back to my house in VA, instead of staying here with my family in Vegas. I think that I would still be skinny or at least wouldn't be this fat again!!
I need help. I need inspiration! I need to get back to being who I am on this inside!!
