Please Ana

Sooo Much has been going on since the last time I posted anything! 

Everything was going great, my number was getting smaller which made my whole world seem more balanced and I felt more in control of everything!

Then as the clouds rolled into my house....My control left! 

Usually when I have no control over anything else I have more control over my body and what goes into it. Lately it has been the opposite!! The more my life gets fucked up the more I weigh!

I have officially regressed and I am once again as fat as I feel inside!!

I have fought the urge to binge, but I feel now that is the reason why I have failed so miserably! 

Dear Ana....I didn't leave you completely I only lost sight of you for a moment and while that happened I didn't give into Mia....

Please Ana, Please come back to me!!